It is hard to believe that almost two weeks have passed since the arrival of Giada Rose. I finally found the strength to put her down (she is too stinkin cute I never want to do this). Today, I want to take some time out for my husband, I want to celebrate him. I titled this post, "I Loved Him First," because I have found in these past 11 days since Giada has been here it is easy to get so wrapped up in her, to hold her constantly, center all our conversations around her, and hit the pillow as soon as she falls asleep for the night. So today, I want to stop, and remind myself that I loved Jason first, and if it wasn't for this love, we wouldn't have our beautiful baby girl. My husband is perfect...for me. That is the beauty, we all find our match, and they are all perfect for us. Since the birth of Giada a lot has changed, I have been moody from time to time, we are stressed and tired trying to figure this new gig out...mommy and daddy. In the midst of it all Jason has been leading his Fresno High Baseball team through the playoffs. Yet, he has heard me out, he gets up at night to make the bottle, he has tried to be a husband and dad while juggling a very stressful end of a baseball season. Although, it hasn't been perfect and we have had a couple of nights of frustration that has been taken out on each other, but we have survived 11 days. Yesterday was the end of the season, they made it to the valley champioship game! They had an amazing season, went 28-3 overall, 15-0 in league, broke home run records, Ken celebrated his 600th win and they received NYL coach of the year. That's a lot of accomplishments in one season. So yesterday we played Garces from Bakersfield at home and we lost a tough one, 4-3 in 8 innings. Jason was devastated, he is taking it very hard. It broke my heart. It hurt me so much to see him hurt so bad. He said two things to me that stung the most, he told me that he just wanted to win a valley championship with his dad and then he later told me that he felt like he failed, like he let so many people down. Ouch. Tears are welling in my eyes as I type. I couldn't help but ask God why in my prayers last night, why can't stories like this win? No matter what I say, no matter how much I bring up all the accomplishments they have had this year it is not going to take his pain of the loss away. I wish he could see what I see. A coach with more passion for his players than I have ever witnessed, a hardworker who spends hours (often more hours than he spends at home) at the field working with kids or working on the field, a son who wants to carry on his dad's legend, a loyal teacher and coach to Fresno High, a mentor to his players, a role model who changes the lifes of student athletes, a teacher who makes sure his athletes succeed and graduate high school, and a husband and father who is learning the balance of it all and sincerely making an effort. I always tell Jason that I can't imagine what he would do as a coach in Clovis, I know he would put in the same time and energy, combined with all the raw, natural talent he would have he would take these kids to new levels. That's the truth. He makes kids better. He helps kids achieve. He takes them places they never thought they could go. Ask them. Go out to the field and watch him coach, you will see it. I want him to know I am proud of him and that he is a champion in my heart. I wanted to take time out to put him first today. To honor him. As I told him last night, next year they will compete and they will achieve things with their team they never thought possible and maybe next year he will get a valley championship with his dad.Hardwork and passion has to pay off eventually right?
So, next post I will blog about Giada's welcome to the world but today I wanted to put my husband first. I want him to know how amazing he is. Now we work on establishing our new family of 3! What a blessing he has given me! Love you J!
After their semi-finals win!
Hugs, Annie
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